Progress so far

(***Originally I wasn't planning on posting my weight, and even now I'm conflicted about it. Inevitably when someone hears my weight, or my weight goals, they start getting a negative attitude because they assume I'm just complaining and I don't really need to lose weight, etc. But that's not the case. I'm naturally a very small person, and I've kept on weight after having my babies just like many other women. I just want my body back. So, that's why I wasn't planning on putting my weight down, but then I figured, heck, this blog is for me, and anyone that reads this and has that attitude about me, obviously they're not really my friends, aren't trying to be understanding, and can just stop reading. Now, this is a hard move for me, because I'm a people pleaser and I usually do what I can to keep the peace, but this is kind of a sore spot for me. Just because I may have started out smaller than some other people, doesn't mean I don't have just as much of a right to want my body back. So, if you're still interested and won't think critically of me . . .read on.)

Back in January I weighed 127. I hoped to reach my 'ideal weight' by the time Todd came home, but I had put it off too long. I now only had 1 1/2 months left. So I had to adjust my goal. My ideal goal is 108; my new goal for when he comes home, is 115. I still plan on continuing after he comes home and reach 108 by my birthday in May. (Now, I know that if you're still reading this, you shouldn't be one of the critical ones, but I feel that I need to clarify something anyway. I'm not unrealistic. Anyone who knows me from growing up, knows that I'm naturally a small person. I was VERY small. When I got married, I weighed 98 lbs. And at my 11 week check up when I was pregnant with my 2nd baby, I still only weighed 101 lbs. BUT, I AM NOT trying to get back to pre-ANY-baby weight. I don't think that would be healthy. But, since I'm naturally small, I would like to get to the lower end of my 'healthy weight range'. It says I'd be underweight if I weighed less than 108, so that's why I'm stopping there. Ok, I'm done clarifying.)
So, starting Jan. 12th, I've been really watching my calories and trying to run 6 days a week. The running hasn't always happened, but usually it does. I've been running 2 miles and either walking 1 or 2 more. Usually just one. BUT in the last 3 1/2 weeks, I've managed to lose 7 1/2 lbs. I weighed in at 119.4 yesterday! I'm very proud of myself, as it hasn't always been easy. I always try to come in under my calorie budget just with my diet, and then any exercise I do on top of that, just helps me lose faster. I know that it will be hard to maintain this schedule, but with only 3 weeks left until Todd comes home, I should definitely reach my 115 before he gets here. (Todd has also been working on his diet and exercise and has lost 35 lbs. since he's been gone.)
I really look forward to my runs. I'm running on the treadmill, and although I hate it, I feel so good when it's done. There are a couple of problems with it though. I can only run when Lillian is sleeping, otherwise she keeps crawling over to the treadmill and trying to touch it. So I usually have a specific window of time, and if we're not home while she's napping, it usually doesn't happen. The 2nd is that the treadmill is BORING! It's better now that it's in my front room instead of my garage and all I could do is stare at the wall. I usually put the TV on or a movie, but still, it's so easy to just push the stop button and decide I want to be done. So, besides the scenery, that's a big reason that I prefer running outside, and not on a track. I can't just stop whenever I'm tired, because I know I still have to keep running in order to get home. Once the weather is nicer, I'll be able to run outside, but I obviously can't do that while Lillian is sleeping, so that will have to wait until Todd is home and he can stay home with the kids.
So, that is my update so far. Now everyone is caught up to where I am. I really hope that you can understand my position. That even though my #s may be smaller than some others, I still face the same problems that others face and the same desire, too.